indifferent

before anything else,,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE JOY!
thank you for everything you've done for me.

I cannot say I'm happy 'coz I'm not.
i cannot say I'm sad 'coz I certainly am not. Am I really?
waah
here i am again.. pretending! i hate it myself! ewan ko kung baket ako ganito!

This has been my life for the past years-nonsense. i haven't done anything satisfactory. for that, i hate myself. i never exerted an effort to finish something, even though some work interest me. grrrr...

tumatakbo ang oras
naiiwan na ako ng panahon
di na nagbago bawat araw pare pareho
parang kahapon

i've tried to change, many times. but it seems like i always go back and do what i usually do- being stupid.

i'll try again.
i'll never lose hope.
i'll continue to live, to love, to search for myself..